Blue...
Saturday, August 28, 2004 Captain's Log Stardate -319657.09
I'm really not feeling good for the past several months. Siguro nga depressed nako. Hindi ko lang alam pero baka sa loob ng utak ko ganon na nga talaga. I tried to diagnosed myself with the symptoms of depression. So far, lahat ng naka highlight ay meron ako.
- You feel miserable and sad.
- You feel exhausted a lot of the time with no energy .
- You feel as if even the smallest tasks are sometimes impossible.
- You seldom enjoy the things that you used to enjoy-you may be off sex or food or may 'comfort eat' to excess.
- You feel very anxious sometimes.
- You don't want to see people or are scared to be left alone. Social activity may feel hard or impossible.
- You find it difficult to think clearly.
- You feel like a failure and/or feel guilty a lot of the time.
- You feel a burden to others.
- You sometimes feel that life isn't worth living.
- You can see no future. There is a loss of hope. You feel all you've ever done is make mistakes and that's all that you ever will do.
- You feel irritable or angry more than usual.
- You feel you have no confidence.
- You spend a lot of time thinking about what has gone wrong, what will go wrong or what is wrong about yourself as a person.
- You may also feel guilty sometimes about being critical of others (or even thinking critically about them).
- You feel that life is unfair.
- You have difficulty sleeping or wake up very early in the morning and can't sleep again.
- You seem to dream all night long and sometimes have disturbing dreams.
- You feel that life has/is 'passing you by.'
- You may have physical aches and pains which appear to have no physical cause, such as back pain.
14 out of 18. Not bad eh?
Bakit ganon. Yung taong nilalabasan ko lang ng mga sungit ko, hindi pa ako maintindihan. Siguro nga walang gustong umintindi sakin.
Most of the time, nginingitian at dinadaan ko sa tawa ang mga bagay. One thing na natutunan ko nung grade 6 ako is na kung may problema ka, wag mong dalin sa school or sa work. So kapag nasa school ako and kasama ko sila Karlo, tawa na lang ako. Pag may activity sa org, active ako. Ginagawa ko na lang busy sarili ko sa ibang bagay. Tutal nag-aaral ako ng mga useless and worthless subjects na hindi naman kailangan sa field pero pinapahirapan pa ng mga teachers.
Mahina lang talaga siguro ako para tanggapin lahat ng nangyayari sa paligid. I'm afraid of change. Sa loob ko, hindi ko siguro tanggap pa na may binagsak akong subject ngayon college. Sa dinami dami ng subject, Trigonometry pa. Subject na may pinakamataas akong grade nung highschool -- 97% Then pagdating ng college -- 5.0
Madaling sabihin na huwag ko ng isipin to. Pero sabi nyo lang yun. Mahirap.
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Rainy Thursday
Thursday, August 26, 2004 Captain's Log Stardate -319652.2
Rainy huh? Only in the Philippines ka makakakita na lumulubog ang kalahati ng isang city kapag umuulan. At dito ka lang din makakakita ng mga batang naliligo sa baha na puro basura at hindi mo malaman kung ano ano pa ang lumalangoy.
Last Tuesday nagmeeting kami sa AMACU ng mga new set of officers ng AMA microsystems. Introduce namin sila kay Mam Shao and medyo nasindak yata yung mga bata. Hehehe. Anyway, may mga kuya na sila dun. Kung ma-aamend yung constitution ng org para pwede maging president ang CS, gusto kong maging president ng microsystems si Jenny. Naging president na kasi sya ng Student Council ng ACLC Munoz. Kayang kaya nya i-handle ang microsystems. Nakita ko rin si Sir Chris. Malungkot sya and wala na mga gamit nya sa OSA. Maabolish yata ang OSA. :(
After nung meeting namin, pumunta kaming tatlo nila andrew "siopao master" at karlo sa Level Up!
Nag bus na kami kasi masyadong mabilis kung MRT ang sasakyan namin kasi mga 330-4PM pa available si Ate Jean. Next time huwag ko na daw isama si andrew. Yan. Kasi. Ang kulit. :)) Tignan nyo nakita namin sa bus:
May padating pang bagyo... Haay...
Birthday pala ni Rizza kahapon... Ay... No comment. Hahahahaha!
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Sad...
Monday, August 23, 2004 Captain's Log Stardate -319644.76
Bakit ganon. Yung mga taong mababait and may ginagawang matino ang natatanggal sa trabaho. Bat ko nasabi to? Kasi sa dinami daming pwedeng ma-retrench, sila Sir Chris pa at si Mam Jocy. Bat kaya hindi sila mag-alis ng mga teacher na... wala. Ayoko na magsalita.
AMACU will never be the same...
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Wala lang...
Sunday, August 22, 2004 Captain's Log Stardate -319640.68
Masakit pa din ang batok ko. Ano kaya to. Baka may nakain akong worm tapos nanganak na sa loob ng katawan ko. Hahaha!
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Bad day part 2
Friday, August 20, 2004 Captain's Log Supplemental
Mali ang nakuha kong schedule ng exam kanina. Galing ko no? Conflict pala yung isang exam ko kanina. Hay. May VCD na pala ako ng Star Trek: Nemesis. Insureccion na lang kulang. Hehehe. Walang pasok bukas. Yehey!
Care for a "mola" energy drink? Nakunan ko lang sa canteen kanina. Hehehe.
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Bad day
Captain's Log Stardate -319635.14
Went to school at 8am... Nalate ako sa exams ko kanina sa Logic. Naman kasi eh. Hinukay yung daanan papuntang AMA and stucked kami. Naglakad na lang kami papasok. Then ngayon paguwi ko, naman.... Destiny naman... 1 month na... Sobrang unstable ng connection. Kailangan matapos ko na yung Season 2 ng Star Trek Enterprise na download ko sa Torrent. Haaay! Magrereview na lang nga ako. May exam ako mamayang 1Pm.
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Mystery SMS and a New MoBlog
Thursday, August 19, 2004 Captain's Log Stardate -319636.35
M0r thn 20 AMACU employis r retrunchd olm0st lyk geting fyrd cozing m0r thn 4 dept's merge or ab0lishd.On FRI we ask u 2 wer red as a silent protest.Do pas.TY,
Natanggap ko tong text na ito several minutes ago. Hmmm... Finals ko pala bukas and hindi pa ako nagrereview. Wala lang.
I have a new moblog or mobile blog. You can view it here
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Aim high
Tuesday, August 17, 2004 Never stop seeking what seems to be unobtainable
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Life beyond
Monday, August 16, 2004 Captain's Log Stardate -319625.43
It is estimated that there are one billion stars, like ours, and in all the universe, there are one billion, billion, planets capable of supporting life, like ours. And in all of that, and maybe even more, there is only one of each of us.
What if there really is life beyond our solar system? What will happen to religion? Where will Christ be? The teachings of the Bible, hell, and everything. Will it be flushed with all other fictitious things man has created? I don't know.
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
ELTRO2 =)
Saturday, August 14, 2004 Captain's Log Stardate -319619.48
Kakatapos lang ng defense namin kanina sa Electronics 2. Electronics 2? Hmmm... Kakagulat ba? Graduating nako pero ELTRO2 pa din? Labo no? Hehehe. Oh well. La lang. Anyway, thanks to Ryan Yerro and may nagawa kaming amplifier and nasagutan ko yung isa sa questions dahil sa pag-coach nya sa akin. Hehehe. Sana naman pumasa ako sa subject na to. Hehehe.
Bukas binyag ng anak ng pinsan ko. Ninong ako. WoW. Poor lang po ako. Huhuhuhu. :P
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Teacher
Wednesday, August 11, 2004 Captain's Log Stardate -319611.03
"What the teacher is, is more important than what he teaches." -Karl Menninger
I hope that all of my teachers are like that. Accepting the fact that they do not know everything. Unfortunately, a lot of them have attitude problems. They must have forgotten that they are at school to teach. To help students discover new things and prepare them in the next phase of their life.
I have a professor that keeps on telling our class that my course (BS Computer Engineering) sucks and that we'll land a call center job anyway. He always say "Magshift na lang kayo sa ECE. Walang kachallenge-challenge yang course nyo. Tutal callcenter naman bagsak nyo nyan eh. Magiging close pa tayo pag nagshift kayo". WTF?! Talk about encouragement to the highest level.
People like him is one of the primary reason why I want to be a teacher today. If he's so good then what the hell is he doing in a school and practicing teaching when he's really not there to teach? He shouldn't be there. I wanted to become a network or system administrator of an IT company before. That was my dream. It's a different story now. I'm determined to be a teacher. Students need me.
Teaching is more challenging than studying. In studying, you are only trying to understand one person. In teaching, you must do your best to be understand by not just one or three students, but all of them.
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
I miss Patak
Tuesday, August 10, 2004 Captain's Log STARDATE -319608.44
I miss Patak. Wala ng makulit pagdinner and lunchtime. Wala na yung cute na iyak nya. :(
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Goodbye Patak =(
Sunday, August 08, 2004 Captain's Log STARDATE -319602.44
My puppy Patak died this morning :(
Para lang syang natutulog nung kinunan ko sya ng picture. :(
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Happy Birthday Cezar!!
Saturday, August 07, 2004 Captain's Log STARDATE -319600.73
Today is Cezar (or Patchok's) Birthday! Ang tanda mo na!!! It seems that it was just yesterday when I first met him inside the Roque Ruano Bldg in UST. 5 yrs ago na pala yun. Well I hope that you had a wonderful time beshpren, tsaka na lang yung gift ko na kiss sa iyo. Hehehehhe.
May quiz ako kanina sa Electromagnetics... nasagutan ko. Wow. Wala lang
Kakatapos ko lang gawin yung program para sa presentation nila Dennis sa PROLAN. Para akong nagcrash course sa Visual Basic. 4th Year high school pa kasi ako last na nagprogram using VB. Nakalimutan ko na gumawa ng link. Ahahahay!!
May sakit si Patak ko. Nagpoopoo kanina ng blood. Wawa naman Patak ko. Pinainom na namin sya ni mama ng antibiotic. Sana bukas magaling na sya :(
Nilibing na kanina si Lola Nene. :(
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
Dial Up > Destiny
Tuesday, August 03, 2004 Captain's Log STARDATE -319589.2
3 weeks... 3 weeks akong walang internet. Actually, meron pero parang wala sa sobrang bagal. Mas mabagal pa sa dial up. Dapat ganito na ang slogan ng Destiny:
Buti na lang may trial account ako ng MozCom pero ubos na din yun. Hay. Buhay nga naman talaga. Dapat may rebate kami. Halos 1 month hindi ako makabrowse :(
May new camera na pala ang SE t68i ko. Kaso mukhang may sira. Ayaw na mag power on. Binalik na ni daddy sa service center para paayos. Nakakuha ako ng picture kanina. Eto yung isang picture ni Luigi. Siga no?
Tumawag kanina si Tita Adeling and sinabi nya kay mama na namatay na yung Great Grandmother ko na si Lola Nene. Hindi pa namin alam yung dahilan bat sya namatay. Mamaya yata pupunta sila mama sa burol. Si Lola Nene yung Tita ni Mama ko na pure chinese. Bat kaya ako hindi mukhang itsik pero si mama mukha naman? Hmmm...
Tumawag din kanina si Mommy Chie. Sunduin ko daw sya sa America this December and sabay kami uuwi. :)
*Computer end log*
CLICK HERE TO CONTINUE READING
|
